true love waits

You meet people who change the course of your life every now and then. Whether it would be a friend, a work mate, a fellow student or even a girlfriend/boyfriend - whatever way you swing person who has taken time to read this blog - But as of late I've come to realise that many things that come along can either be good or bad. There is no in-between in this life we're living in, you have a set of options of which you must choose and follow through with. Yes, you may be indecisive about which path you'll be taking but there's always that glimmer of hope somewhere in your head. You'll take this chance expecting it to be of bad nature but it comes out as the opposite of your expectation. Euphoria is then shot straight to the head and off you go on your high. But as we all know, you have to come back down sooner or later. Right now, I've been screwed of my happiness so I have to regress to being the cynical and worrysome person that I've always been. Let's hope this changes soon.


It's sad to know that I'm still young and have many years of life ahead. With these years will come new friends. Opportunity will once again rear it's head in my direction and ask me "how do you want me to fuck up your life this time?" I'll answer nonchalantly and carry on about my life and wait for the outcome. Now I'm not trying to say that my friend I've just met won't fuck up my life, I'm just saying that this is what my head goes through everytime I'm presented with making a decision that will have a huge effect on how I think for oh, let say the rest of my life. Don't worry, my new friend, she's very much a person I see in awe.

I've got to stop worrying about the future and planning out how my life will be when I'm 20, 40, 60 or dead. We fall over our own feet, we pick ourselves up or we have friends help us up.

I'm glad to have met all these people who have "changed the course of my life" I don't care if they don't talk to me anymore,see me anymore or even hate me. I'll still love and care for them cause of the experiences I had with them.


I would like to thank Thong and Janina as a source of inspiration for this blog.
Thong, you have been a dear friend of mine this year.
Janina, its only been 5 days but you have made year 12 a much more joyful experience already.



With much love and gratitude

Jim